Every time something has gone wrong in my life it has been said to be my fault because of the way I have chosen to dress, why is that? I dress just like anyone else does, I wear panties and pant or a dress. So why is it my fault? I hope that everyone wears something. I have been told by the law that it was my fault because I should know better then to dress as I do here in south Ga. What if I was in north Ga., would it be ok?
I dress as a woman because that is what I am inside and for the most part on the outside as well. We can search for the real reason why one is called a woman and one be a male, but is there really a good reason? I was always under the believe that I was born in the image of our Lord and God, that God had no gender for God was neither male or female if so then I am neither male nor female.
As John 4:24 states, “God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth.” Since God is a spiritual being, He does not possess physical human characteristics. However, sometimes figurative language used in Scripture assigns human characteristics to God in order to make it possible for man to understand God. This assignment of human characteristics to describe God is called “anthropomorphism.” Anthropomorphism is simply a means for God (a spiritual being) to communicate truth about His nature to humanity, physical beings. Since humanity is physical, we are limited in our understanding of those things beyond the physical realm; therefore, anthropomorphism in Scripture helps us to understand who God is.
I can only believe in what I believe in and I cannot control anything that you do. I live in one of the worst place’s here in the United States for people such as I. We are hated to the up most and can be killed at anytime in our lives. I know people that live right around me that will not walk out in pubic dressed up because they fear what may happen to them, and sometimes I can’t say that I blame them. Right here in my own yard I have been threatened to be killed and the law does nothing, because they just don’t care what happens to me.
I have been ran of the road just because someone knew me and did not like the way I dress. I have never understood what makes one person hate another one so much. If anyone has more reason to hated then myself, why? I have not done anything to anyone that I did not know. It is not like I throw myself on other people, when I am only trying to live my life. I have been asked to join a church and then been told that I was of the devil himself, or that I was born of Satan. Hell I don’t know why they would say that to me, when I was invited into their church in the first place, was it just to have something for them to blame because of their own sins.
Don’t get me wrong I know that yes I have sinned and more then likely when sin again before I die, but let he that has not sinned throw the first stone.
I never was one that likes to lie about what I am, sure I always like to pass as a woman as much as I can, but I always want there to be the shadow of a doubt and before thing gets out of hand everyone does who is what….To me it is more important to be truthful then to be in trouble because being to passable in the wrong place can be trouble…
Most of the time this is what brings on some of my depression. Having to deal with these things can make a body depressed. What separates me from most people like me is that I don’t care if I get killed by some asshole that believes he is better then me. If you want someone to kill, try me, lets see if you are man enough to deal with some that has the power of God on their side..and I know for a fact that I have God on my side, trust me.
I write to deal with my depression in my own way, hope that what I write helps someone deal with the things that are going on in their lives…and in part because there are so many being killed because of being Transgender, help let the world know to stop the killing…
Thought for the day would be to try with all your heart to stay strong and always try to understand that you are not alone, and our numbers grow more everyday….
I am Miss Bobbie Jean living in a world full of dreams..
MY LIFE AS A TRANSGENDER 
Maybe it has nothing to do with you, what you wear, your clothes, your make-up, your hair, your shoes, and maybe it has nothing to do with what you say, your words, your kindness, your cares. Maybe what is truly hated is simply what is being signified…a freedom once known, but now lost, thus, it is an unknown wound, that has not healed, and perhaps, in some way, you call to remembrance, that love, now lost, that freedom, now imprisoned, and because of this, there resides much hatred, for anger and cruelty are the residual conflicts of grief, and nothing more. It is a conflict beyond mere sight, a conflict of the spiritual essence of life.
Wow thank you, that was deep…