DREAMS!

I know that most of what I write about can and is depressing to most of you, but it is about real lives. You may be one of the lucky ones that never have to deal with such meaningless things like depression.
For some of us it is the only life that we have known and it does not matter how hard we try, it never goes away.
Depression does not mean that you are sick, or that there is anything physically wrong with you. Depression can be brought upon you by many means.

Just talked to the nurse at my heart doctor and she said not to give up on them, that were trying to get me in as soon as possible, but not to count on hearing from them till after the first of the year. I wish it would be sooner, but I’ll take what I can get. At least there is still hope, if there is still enough time. I am sure that people wonder why I write about depression a lot, well if you were in my shoes you would be depressed a lot. It is one thing knowing that everyone dies, but when you are told your time is up, chance’s the way you look at things around you. I will miss this place we call home. I know that my life has been harder then most, but I can not help but feel that it was wroth every minute I have spend here on this plant.
God had given me the same chance at life that he gave anyone else. It is not his fault that everything was screwed up. I want to take this time to forgive my enemy’s and to forgive those that felt they were better then me. It is not their fault that they feel this way, it was the way they were brought up to be. Hatred is not something that we are born with in our hearts, it is something that is taught to us by some one who has hated all their life.
I have learned that the true me is what you see, there is nothing more, or nothing less. I am a real transwoman living in a world full of hared all around me and here is where I will die.
People ask me how is it that I look so good when I go out into the public eye? This is what I say to them, “ never let them see you crying, because for some reason, they will think that they have won.” Will I have lived with that reasoning all my life and I believe in it. People are curl and mean, they will take that as a sign of weakness, and we are not weak, are we?
Remember that there is always some one like me that will try to help you deal with your depression and suffering. If only I had the power to remove your suffering from you, I would gladly carry that load. I am not trying to say that I am anything but a child of God and as part of his beliefs it is for us to help thy fellow man, woman, or child to live a better life. After all, we are all looking for the same thing, “Happiness”. Happiness means a lot to a lot of people, it is a matter of living a good life or a bad one. Fill your life with happy things and people, surround yourself with something cheerful. Love is on the other side whether you believe it or not. There is always hope, just like I hope that this defibrillator will help me to live just a little longer, because I still have a lot of work to do, there are still transwomen being murdered everyday. Let us be the ones to try and do something about letting the world know that “TRANS LIVES MATTER” just as much as black’s or anyone else for that matter, we are human beings and all children of God. God did not make any mistake’s when he made people like us, he made us in his own image and he loves us for being the prefect image of him.

With these words, I will move on and try to work with my plants to deal with my depression today. God has a way of giving me something to think about instead of thinking about dying. It makes things better for me. With a love that is truer then the sky’s are blue, is the love I share with you, It is called God’s Love.

I am Miss Bobbie Jean Chiasson and I have lived a life time in the eyes of God and you can to, just be true to yourself and the rest will follow suit.

Remember that living with a dream is only part of it, living that dream is the rest of the journey.

© 2014 – 2015 Living transgender All rights reserved

This photo is the work of Gods love to us.

 

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Trans live’s Matter!!!!!

Hope it warms up some so I can go outside today. In God we trust, that he will take care of us in our hour of need.I believe that he is watching over me and helps me to share my life with you. It has been a long and hard journey for me and most like me but I can not help but believe that we have made a difference in the live’s of many. I will be watching to see how things have gotten better, and they will. One day we will be recognized as normal people, not something or someone to fear. May the spirit of the Lord led your way. Remember to be true to yourself, because the only one that Matters is you.

Miss Bobbie Jean.

Finding Gods true love.

Good morning. I have found a way for me to deal with the depression of everyday life. I find something to do to help myself and others around me. It brings me joy and gives me something to stop the depression. I am not prefect, but I try to do only what God allows me to do.

I know that everyone should have the right to believe in what they have chosen to believe in, so I have chosen to believe in why God gave us his only son to die for us. I truly believe that God is the Father and he does not make mistake’s. God is with me everyday of my life, and for that I am proud to say I believe in him. The world around us can and will be a crude place to live, but it is up to us to change that hatred into love, that is what God want’s from us. Spreading the goodness of the Lord bring peace to my heart and soul. I know people right now having to sleep in their car, or where ever they can find a bed, or even a floor to lay on, there is something wrong with that. I do what I can to try and help them the best way I can. I am sorry that I have no bed for them, but maybe by me sharing what I have is a blessing to them. I have found that so many people are in need of something, even if it is only to talk to some one about what they are dealing with.
Today try to do that, if that is all you can do, just listen to some one.
May you find the same peace that I have found.
I am Miss Bobbie Jean with a dream of true humanity.

We All Battle Depression In Our Own Way!

 

Good morning , hoping that your life is in your hands and not the others man’s hand.
It is ashamed that I had to wait till I was told that my time was up to learn more about what God really is. I have found more love and understanding since I made the choice to allow God into my life. My days and nights are much better, I am tried, but yet I am sleeping at night now.
He has given me the strength to endure going back out to the flea market and helps me all day to deal with it. I have talked to old people that I have known for years and met new people at the same time.
I give some things away and sell some things, but I try most of all to have little fun doing it.It is such a pleasure to see a kid smile when you just give him or her a toy, or to get them to pay for something and let them see what it is like to pay for it themselves.
I look at it this way, it does not matter if I had to buy it or if God gave it to me, which he does that a lot of times. I enjoy seeing the happiness in a child. I did not have that pleasure from my own kids.
To set up for two days and that is really hard on me, but it gives me something to do.
I have found that God was in my heart all along, it was just that I had allowed the haters to teach me how to hate just like them, well I forgive them, because that have no idea what they are doing, in turn I have asked God for forgiveness and hope that he can find it in him to do so.
With Gods love I say Be blessed in what ever you will believe in, but it is your right to do so. Thank you for sharing my life with me.
Bobbie Jean
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OH, LORD!

I Battle Depression
This is my way of Battling Depression.

OH, LORD!

Another day is born,
Trying to wake up in this early morn.
I feel that the Lord is by my side,
I now know the feeling for him I cannot hide.

I ready use to think that life was about sex,
Maybe it was because, it was all I could get.
Now that I have found the Lord with me,
It is much easier for me to see.

My body may be full of pain,
But heart is with God, oh yes I am.
I no longer fight death,
Because I now know that God is the best that I can get.

Lord thank you for watching over me,
Yes you are all I have felt you see.
I am not afraid to die,
Because I now have the Lord on my side.

Written by me,
I am a Queen can you see.
My name is Miss Bobbie Jean,
Yes I have a dream………

© 2014 – 2015 Living transgender All rights reserved

God I now have in my Life!

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For years I have wanted God in my life and I thought that the only way for that was through the church and it’s christian follower, but I was wrong, I don’t need the church or those so called christian followers because for the most part they did not want me in their church in the first place. I have been call all kinds of things and even was told that I was satin himself. One preacher told his followers that I was the way the Devil would look when he came to get them and he thought that God would look like him, Ya right.
Well I don’t need them to have God in my heart and that is where I have found him. He walks with me everyday of my life and
protect ‘s me as a move forward to meet him in heaven. I am truly blessed to have the Lord my Father as my time comes to an end. I am looking forward to being with my God, my Savior.
I am not as afraid as I was when they first told me I was dying, because I feel that I am not dying but being reborn to sit with him in the everlasting.
I don’t want anyone to be sad for me, but to be happy that I am going home where I belong.
You have been a true friend to me in my time of need and hope that you will live for a long time, because you are truly blessed with Gods love.
Love is forever in Gods house. I am Miss Bobbie Jean with a dream, let God fill your heart to the brim with his kindness and love.

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Lonely

I have not had a real hug in so long, I have forgotten what it would fell like to be touched and hugged. It has really sadden me that I find myself so alone here, at the age of 64, there is really no one in me life. It is odd that when I dressed as a male and I did for everyone I had more friends, but when I changed to dress as me, for me, I have no one. Something is wrong with that, for I am the same person inside. My heart has not changed, just what I wear.
If I have done something wrong, may God please forgive me.
Miss Bobbie Jean.