THE OLD ONES!

 

Been feeling a bit of depression this week, with dealing with so much pain and getting little or no relief from it has really made it hard for me to do anything at all. I have not been able to work in my garden and it has forced me to not want to do anything, even trying to write this is taking so much out of me.
Broken down with age,
Don’t see much of the kids these days.
They are to busy on their way,
Not thinking of the old ones that day.

Maybe they have just forgotten you,
Not remembering all the things you used to do.
You filled their lives the best you could,
You didn’t just do it because you should.

Now you sit all alone,
Just hoping the kids will come home.
Never does the phone ring,
So here it is, another X-Mass and you didn’t get a thing.
Please try to never forget the old ones, because with out them there would be no you to do what you do.

There are so many folks alone tonight because for some reason their own families have chosen to just leave them out of their lives. It is not easy to forget the old days when family was family, they stood together no matter what. I hope your family is like that, but most are not these days.

Try to remember what day this is, and that God gave us his only begotten son to die for our sins. Love is the best gift anyone can give to another, please show some love to someone that really needs it, even if you don’t even know them….

I want to say Happy Holidays, but for most it will not be…..

“Written by Bobbie jean”

One Step At A Time!

 

So much pain, sometimes it is really hard to deal with. But,on the other hand I am still breathing, which is worth something in it self. Now I have to conquer this pain and try to move forward again today. I thank God for giving me life everyday that he does. They are going to try and give me some shoots in my hip and shine to help me deal with this problem hope that it works some, anyway. The cold doesn’t help much, makes it harder on my heart and my lungs, but I have tried using three pillows to sleep on and I feel that it has help some with the breathing. I had a good day yesterday, worked in my Secret Garden all day. I was able to find the strength to add a couple more selves and sorted some of my plants as well as trans planting a few. I can breath the clean air that my plants give me, I feel that it to is helping me.I love working around all this beauty and things are really looking good in my garden.
Christmas time is near and it is a time for giving. It is the time when people open their hearths to others. As you are moving through your days of joy, try not to forget about those that have nothing but the hope in their hearts of a better life, and a family. Maybe you can’t care for another child, but maybe you know someone that can and will give that child the love that it needs. Please encourage them to Adopt if they can.

Give the best gift you can give to another, love and happiness.

Thank you for your time and your friendship, Happy Holidays.

From Miss Bobbie Jean, dreaming onward….

P.S. Remember this is one of the worst times of the year for people fighting with depression. Sometimes all it takes is a hug to make someones day. A hug is a real show of love and understanding, Please hug some one in need of one.
Thank you.

Finding Myself!

 

Sometimes it is hard for me to focus on what I have to do, because of the fact that I am dying and in poor health, but I must not let that stop me from doing these things. I still must be strong and dig deep down inside myself to keep working. They have an old saying about making your life serve your needs, well that is where I am at these days. I am trying to do what is right for myself and enjoy what I am doing now, because I may not have a tomorrow to do it. I know that there are ours out there dealing with some kind of problems of their own and feel like it will not come to an end, but it will, if you allow it to.
Today’s world that we live in life can and will be hard at times, but it is up to us to try and make it better, ain’t no one going to do that for us.
I don’t know about you and what your needs are out of this life here, but if I am going to die, I would just as soon die working in my garden, then to die just wasting my time away.
Fine the inner strength that you have inside yourself to endure this hardship and live while you can, life is way to short to allow the nothingness to run it for you.

Thank you…

I have not stopped dreaming of a better tomorrow even if I don’t get to see it.
I am Miss Bobbie Jean with a dream……

In The Light Of Gods Love!

 

Another day has begun and the sun is raising up over the horizon. I had a fair night’s rest, and I am feeling like maybe I can try to do something today with my plants in my garden. I just got a new load of plants yesterday and that are beautiful. The fall colors are amazing and shine in the light of Gods blessing’s.
I too shine in the light of his blessing as I go through life everyday. When I had to make the choice of who I would be, I ask God to stand with me and so he has all these years. He has given me my strength and my courage to move forward when I did chose to become the woman in me. I have given my life to help anyone who has found themselves to be different them most. I have been judged all my life even before I had changed to who I am today. People have this foolish thought that they can say anything they want and it does not matter who they hurt in the long run. I have found that when someone says something to harm someone else, it does not say much for them. They show others just what kind of an a**hole they ready are.
Life itself is full of up’s and down’s. What we have to do is make the best of the up sides to overcome the down sides.
Be true to yourself and try as hard as you can not to allow others to get you down, I know how hard that can be as well, but it can be done.
People will always judge you, it does not matter what you do, so their opinion means nothing. Let them run their own-self down, because when they are trying to put you down they are only hurting themselves.
Hope your day shine’s from the light of Gods true love.

I am Miss Bobbie Jean,
with the same dream of a better tomorrow for all to see.
Living a dream just to be me.

© 2014 – 2015 Living transgender All rights reserved

Gods Love For Me!

 

As the sun comes up for another day,
I thank God for showing me the way.
He has given me the strength to write,
He has shown me what life is about.

Before I knew him in my life,
I was lost and full of doubt.
I though that there was no hope for me,
Since I have allowed him into my life now I can see.

Myself, I battle with depression on a daily basis,
But I have ask God to keep me away from those places.
He has given me a place to rest,
It is place where I can do my best.

Even though my health has taken my breath from me,
He has shown me there is a better place to be.
So with his goodness and hearth of gold,
He has shown me the way to heaven,out of this cold.

I have given him my hearth and my soul,
As he helps me reach my goal.
I know that I am not prefect at all,
But he sure has helped me to stand tall.
So with his love I move forward for another day,
I am proud to allow him to show me my way.
I know what I have to go through,
I surely hope that God works for you.

Written by Miss Bobbie Jean,
Written by someone with a dream.

© 2014 – 2015 Living transgender All rights reserved

I Battle With Depression!

Feeling really down and out today. It has turned cold and I have gotten old. I can’t do much of anything any more and the cold just makes it harder. I thank God everyday that he allows me to share this place with you. Your love has given me hope that this world will change for the better, as long as you all stick together. I have always believed that we are only has good as the people around us, if this is true, then I really must be an Angel, because of you. With all the love I can give, I give it to you my friends…..My heart really is sadden because when my time comes, I will surely miss you..Bobbie Jean.

DREAMS!

I know that most of what I write about can and is depressing to most of you, but it is about real lives. You may be one of the lucky ones that never have to deal with such meaningless things like depression.
For some of us it is the only life that we have known and it does not matter how hard we try, it never goes away.
Depression does not mean that you are sick, or that there is anything physically wrong with you. Depression can be brought upon you by many means.

Just talked to the nurse at my heart doctor and she said not to give up on them, that were trying to get me in as soon as possible, but not to count on hearing from them till after the first of the year. I wish it would be sooner, but I’ll take what I can get. At least there is still hope, if there is still enough time. I am sure that people wonder why I write about depression a lot, well if you were in my shoes you would be depressed a lot. It is one thing knowing that everyone dies, but when you are told your time is up, chance’s the way you look at things around you. I will miss this place we call home. I know that my life has been harder then most, but I can not help but feel that it was wroth every minute I have spend here on this plant.
God had given me the same chance at life that he gave anyone else. It is not his fault that everything was screwed up. I want to take this time to forgive my enemy’s and to forgive those that felt they were better then me. It is not their fault that they feel this way, it was the way they were brought up to be. Hatred is not something that we are born with in our hearts, it is something that is taught to us by some one who has hated all their life.
I have learned that the true me is what you see, there is nothing more, or nothing less. I am a real transwoman living in a world full of hared all around me and here is where I will die.
People ask me how is it that I look so good when I go out into the public eye? This is what I say to them, “ never let them see you crying, because for some reason, they will think that they have won.” Will I have lived with that reasoning all my life and I believe in it. People are curl and mean, they will take that as a sign of weakness, and we are not weak, are we?
Remember that there is always some one like me that will try to help you deal with your depression and suffering. If only I had the power to remove your suffering from you, I would gladly carry that load. I am not trying to say that I am anything but a child of God and as part of his beliefs it is for us to help thy fellow man, woman, or child to live a better life. After all, we are all looking for the same thing, “Happiness”. Happiness means a lot to a lot of people, it is a matter of living a good life or a bad one. Fill your life with happy things and people, surround yourself with something cheerful. Love is on the other side whether you believe it or not. There is always hope, just like I hope that this defibrillator will help me to live just a little longer, because I still have a lot of work to do, there are still transwomen being murdered everyday. Let us be the ones to try and do something about letting the world know that “TRANS LIVES MATTER” just as much as black’s or anyone else for that matter, we are human beings and all children of God. God did not make any mistake’s when he made people like us, he made us in his own image and he loves us for being the prefect image of him.

With these words, I will move on and try to work with my plants to deal with my depression today. God has a way of giving me something to think about instead of thinking about dying. It makes things better for me. With a love that is truer then the sky’s are blue, is the love I share with you, It is called God’s Love.

I am Miss Bobbie Jean Chiasson and I have lived a life time in the eyes of God and you can to, just be true to yourself and the rest will follow suit.

Remember that living with a dream is only part of it, living that dream is the rest of the journey.

© 2014 – 2015 Living transgender All rights reserved

This photo is the work of Gods love to us.

 

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