When I pray!

When I pray My Lord ,I pray to you,

I give thanks for all the things you do.

You are my strength that helps me through my day,

You give me the courage to make it another day.

 

With-out you in my life I would be nothing,

You even help me deal with all my suffering.

I am not sure why you keep me around,

But you are My King for you are wearing the Crown.

 

I have given you my soul,

It is the only way I can get into Heaven I am told.

I have put my trust in you My Lord,

You are my Father, oh yes you are.

 

I give all my love to you,

Not jut for doing what you do, but for just being you.

On this day I ask for your forgiveness,

You gave us your Son to free us.

 

You are the Father , the Son, and the Holy Spirit,

You will lift me up to be by your side,

That is where I’ll be when I die.

 

I want to give thanks to my God for becoming part of my life, before I was lost and now I am found, I think I want to keep you my God around. I hope that you are having a Blessed day and something will come your way. I have found God in my heart and I will never let him part.

Find it in your heart to be kind to someone today, help them if you can in your own way. Not everyone is Blessed as you may be, so try to make a better life for them, you see.

Hope you have a great day.

I am Miss Bobbie Jean , and yes I still have this dream of a better world for all to see.

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Life Is What It Is!

Life Is What It Is!

Sometimes in life we don’t get what we expect to get, but we have to settle for what we have. All my life I have wanted to be a woman and I have lived up to that the best I could. Sometimes things were good and sometimes thing were not so good.All I really want was be to passable enough to get by and find someone that would just love me for who I am. I tried hard to be the best at what I am and even at that I still didn’t always make it. I had chance’s in my life to be more, but for one reason or another I had to put a hold on my life to help someone else.Sometimes we find ourselves doing something like that, maybe it is what one would call love, I know that is why I did what I did, it was for love for another human being that I shut my life down for a while.When one does something like that it is harder to get make started again and move forward. I have had to start over a few times and each time was harder then the last time, but I found my way to make it happen. I have on regrets about doing what I done for that person yet I really wish that I didn’t have to do it in the first place.I loved who I was but I also love the person that I made the change for. I think it is important to know what your real choice’s are in the first place and then try to make the right ones. I always though I was a failure as a man, but I have found that I didn’t do so good as a woman either. I only know that I did the bet I could do on matter what the end was. About the only thing I can say here is use your own mind and try to make the right choice’s for yourselves no anyone else, you’ll find that you will have enough to worry about with-out worrying about what others may think of you.

Just remember that this is your life and you are the one that will have to deal with what ever it brings you. This is just my point of view.
I am Miss Bobbie Jean with a dream of a better tomorrow for us all.

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Living As A Transgender

HI, hope to find you in god health and doing the best you can these days. I have noticed that when I was younger there were no such things as She male and and tyranny’s. The were called lady-boys and T-girls. As time passed by they begin to call themselves as She-males and tyranny girl. Wear as little of clothing that they could get away with out on the streets. Then all of a sudden the words Transgender came into play, now these same guys that were dressing for porn started dressing to want to become a transgender and be labeled as such, well they were still only cross -dressers that dressed the part of a sexy porn star just to get the attention, it was not about be transgender at all. That was just another name that they could use to pass in society’ world.
Believe me if you are a true transgender you will know because it is not something that just started yesterday, it has been buried deep inside you for many years. Myself, I knew when I was just a child back in junior high, I did not have to make that choice it was made for me., when I could not find myself dressing in the the boys locker room at school, I knew that I was different then the rest of the guys, but I could change what I was, nor could I change what I was becoming. When I was in my earlier teens there was not talk of be gay or of dressing up like a girl, so I had to deal with it and being in the country was even worst. Maybe in the big cities things were easier to deal with, but out here in the country it was like a one on one basic’s and you you had to deal with it that way, one on one. I remember there were a couple of guys that I had fallen in love with, but I did not dare to say anything in front of them, because it could have meant my life, so I just loved the from a for and was happy to share some kind of life with them. I had fallen head over heels for this one guy, but he was also my best friend, but when I came out to him, All I did was lose him as a friend and a lover and had nothing in the end. All I can remember is that is broke my heart and it took me a long time to get over that one., he was so handsome, tall, with long blonde hair and I real think that I loved him with all my heart, I do know that he care for me, because we lived together for weeks before we broke it off, we finally got back to be friends again, but it was a long time in the making. By that time I had stated living with a girl and everything had changed for us, we never did try anything like that again. All I ever want to o was live as a girl with a guy by my side and even though I was not dressing that is what I was doing. I cooked for him and took care of hie in all the ways a woman would do, I was happy in those days. But then the shit hit the fan when his Father came over and told him that he would have to come back to work for him, it was over then. I really did love him.

Remember this is just my point of view, I am Miss Bobbie Jean, with a dream of a better tomorrow and a better world for us to live in.” One Race Called The Human Race”

With God On My Mind.

 

Each day I start a new day with you on my mind,

I find that it is you I’m thinking of all the time.

You have filled my heart with love,

Because you are sending me this love from above.

 

Even thought I grow weaker, you make my spirit grow stronger,

I know that my heart will not last much longer.

You have given me a life to remenber,

Soon you will give me a new life to enter.

 

I have come to know you a lot more,

I’m hopping soon you will open Heavens door.

For I have lived the best that I could,

I know that you were with me where ever I stood.

 

Please my Lord take me into your heart,

That is a place that I will never part.

I give my heart and soul to you this day,

With you in Heaven is where I want to stay.

 

To my friends, I know that my life will soon end and each day I feel that I will miss you more as I get closer to heavens door. I want you to know how much I care for you being here in my life this day. I sure did not want to die alone, and you have given me a place I can call home. I want to thank each and everyone of you for being here and doing what you do. With all my love and will let you go, I am sure you have more important things to do I know.

With love from me to you, I am Miss Bobbie Jean with a dream of a better world for all we know.

BobbieJean

Good morning to my friends here.

 

Hope that your days are bright and the light from God shows through them.

As you can see I am having troble here dealing with a frined that has said they would get care of me, yet the truth is coming out and now she doesn’t want to dio what neeeds to be done to care form me. Somehow she still doesnot believe that I am as bad off as I make out to be. I started helping her out in the yead lately and now she thinks that I can do that all the time. What she doesn’t get that when I am helping her I am still dealing with the oain and suffering, but I try not to show it as much. All I want is that when I do leave from here is to not have all this pilled up on top of her so that she can start off freast. When I am helping, I am still hurting and sometimes I can’t rvrn move aroundbut thst does not even matter to her.What she doesn’t get, it is my money that is cover all the bills right now and I see no change in that. I have tried to work it out where we may just be able to hold our heads up above water line, but that will take a lot of wrok to do that. I don’t think that she see’s when I paid for something that was muscial, it didn’t matter it beaan hers jusr becauseshe is a munican and even if I paid for it, it is hers now, I see it as I paid for it that still makes it mine, but we will not go there ritgh now. I don’t know why she thinks she can do this on her own.

Now she is refusing to take care of me and doesn’t care where I in up at. My heart is broken and I can’t think clearly anymore, so what do I do from here?

I am not even sure what meds I did take this morning, brcause all I can see is that I want to die and the sooner the better.

It seems to me that right now she is my worst enemy and I don’t know just how much more I can trust her to take care of me. She blames everything on me, because she doesn’t knowe how to tate the blame for herself.

I live as a transwoman ans that too is a problem with her, she thanks that is is all just a game to her. She onlylikes to dress for fun, where I dress to live. I am not sure where thois will end for us, but things are just getting worst.

It doesn’t matter that I love her but it matters to me becauase I have no place else to go. I am asking God to show us through this and try to make it better, not sure how that will work out.

I am very stressed out right now and I have taken more meds then I should have.

Please try to understand where I am at in all this, that you Miss Bobbie Jean.

Let Your Light Shine!

 

Each day a wake,

I have given you my soul to take.

For it is you that I shine,

It is you I have given my time.

 

You are my Father,

It is you I’ll look no farther.

You have given me life,

Because of you that’s what I am about.

 

When I pray, I pray to you,

Now I will be giving my life back to you.

I have tried to do my best,

Now it is for you to do the rest.

 

Living this life of mine,

You are in my though’s all the time.

God for you I have been true,

Because soon I want to be sitting next to you.

 

Just a little prayer for you,

Because I love you and that is true.

I can only pray that your life is good to day.

God will watch you on your way.

 

Please be safe on your weekend of fun.

 

Written by someone with a dream, A dream of

ONE RACE CALLED THE HUMAN RACE”

WRITTEN BY MISS BOBBIE JEAN.

Living as a Transwoman in South Ga.

 

Hi, Hope that your life has been good to you and you get to enjoy some of it being who you really are.
I have been having problems in my life here and lost what I was doing in the first place. I try to let people know what a transgendered person is really like. I have been dressing as a woman for a long time and it has been rough here in South Ga. where I live. When I started here trying to teach these people that being a transgender is not something that should be treated with no respect because we are people to, just like they are. I know that it is hard for someone to come out here. There is no place for us to go and have fun like in other places Here anyone can ban us from even shopping with them and that is wrong, because we have the right to shop where we want to, but not here. I have worked as a woman on a real job for 6 years and that was when it all started for me. I would get hate mail for people like the the men in the white sheets and other hate groups here in the South, but I knew that when I started this journey. All I really want to do was just live out my life as much of a woman that I could and just wanted to find me a nice man that would have been proud of me and loved me for what I was, A Transwoman.
I know that many of you have this fear of losing everything you have if you come out, and I am sure that for some of you that would be true. There are times when I wish I had staid the way I was and not came out all at one tine. That is what caused all the trouble in the first place, because I shocked them and the only thing they could was react to my action. I wanted people to see me, how else can you teach someone about what someone looks like unless you can see them.
I made movies and set up at the flea-market and things really got bad out there but it was all my fault because I dressed as a trans woman. They wanted me to dress as a guy, yet they didn’t even know what I was, they just saw me in a dress and figure I was a man so they attacked me from that point on.
I know that it is not easy to come out no matter where you are from and things can get bad for some. If I had known that I would lose everything I had, maybe I would not have come out myself, but we really don’t know what will happen. I lost my family and all my friends and people I didn’t even know hated me. I could not even stop and buy gas with out someone trying to start a lot of BS. So I know more then most what it is like to be on the losing end.
All I can say is that if you are comfortable living as you are and not being able to bring yourself to living the life you should be living then good for you, but you are the real loser by trapping yourself into that life style.
It is my point of view that we should all live the life that we are meant to live.

I think that I will stop now, getting tried of typing.
I want to say May God bless you, no matter what life style you live.
Thank you, Miss Bobbie Jean.

 

MISS BOBBIE JEAN